Apparently my life is also in a Felicia Day phase. I watched the first season of the Guild on Netflix. I should watch it on the web so they are short fun gulps instead of shoving it all in at once. I also started playing a tower defense game called Kingdom Rush on Armor Games because of her. It is mighty fun.
Felicia Day is a cool woman and she posted a link. Simple Daily Habits to Ignite Your Passions
I should not but I get mildly jealous of creative driven people like Felicia Day. She played the violin really well, acts and writes in a niche market, and goes to conventions as a Guest. My brain then smacks me with reality. I never wanted to move to LA to make my fortune. I enjoy my bass but I have never wanted to practice it enough to become really good. I might enjoy being a guest but I like not being that constrained.
I just want to be a bit more creative without doing any of the work. I actually got somewhat jealous of a fictional character in a fantasy book because she was a talented musician. The book is War for the Oaks by Emma Bull.
All right I am in a whiny mood.
To the point!
I like the suggestions in the link so I will be doing them. One of the suggestions is to blog... so I came back. I loved my phase were my muse were words that started with C. Now the theme of the blogs will start with a P. Look forward to blogs about Portland, the Present, Pets, Projects,... and private bits. No! No private bits but I got stuck. Duh! Passion!!
Any requests or suggestions for other P words?
Friday, July 29, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
Symphony Struggles
Hey all,
I am babysitting again. It is going really well. It is like it gets easier. The plan is to go to the library and then the playground. I am ready to go right at this moment but I think cartoons on channel 8 end in 15 minutes so I will use those minutes wisely.
Like it says in the title, I am struggling in the Symphony. I have been playing in it for 13 years (the baby cries so I will be back). My usually position was third or fourth. Position in a section cab be done in a few ways. In my past, there were auditions and people were ranked by skill. It has never formally been done that way in the Chandler Symphony Orchestra but informally. A gent named Ray and I switched back and forth since our skill levels were similiar. Well a new guy Jerry came. He took third because he comes early like really early. I had no problems the first concert. I then asked to switch up for the next one. Jerry said no.
No?
Jerry wanted to audtion. No problem. Ray wanted to as well at that point because I think both of us wanted to see how Russ would rank us. Russ did not want to do the audition way. Alright, but Jerry kept his place. He does not pass information done that Russ shares. He also just stops playing and writes lots of notes on his music. Small stuff but it started to get to me.
The other way to order a section is to rotate places. I asked Russ if he could do that. He said he would. He pulled Carl from the back and put him in front of Jerry. Russ never did it on his own. He only would do it when I asked and I never got to be second. I then asked basically if I could sit second but Russ said no. I do not know why. The lack of communication got to me. I do not knwo what to do but I think I will learn viola over the summer and switch. Or I will look for other ways to play my bass.
I also blog for the symphony. I have been struggling with it because no one cares. I have not been posting like I should. They did link the blog from the main site so I really felt like I should post every week. Well yesterday I went to the main site to find out more about the chamber orchestra and when my next concert would be. The link to my blog was gone. I looked all over but they took it done. I do not know if it was on purpose or not. It is very frustrating. I will blog more often for myself. I guess I should find out if it was on purpose or not.
I just do not know if my time with the Chandler Symphony is coming to an end. I have done it for so long that it upsets me to think that.
I am babysitting again. It is going really well. It is like it gets easier. The plan is to go to the library and then the playground. I am ready to go right at this moment but I think cartoons on channel 8 end in 15 minutes so I will use those minutes wisely.
Like it says in the title, I am struggling in the Symphony. I have been playing in it for 13 years (the baby cries so I will be back). My usually position was third or fourth. Position in a section cab be done in a few ways. In my past, there were auditions and people were ranked by skill. It has never formally been done that way in the Chandler Symphony Orchestra but informally. A gent named Ray and I switched back and forth since our skill levels were similiar. Well a new guy Jerry came. He took third because he comes early like really early. I had no problems the first concert. I then asked to switch up for the next one. Jerry said no.
No?
Jerry wanted to audtion. No problem. Ray wanted to as well at that point because I think both of us wanted to see how Russ would rank us. Russ did not want to do the audition way. Alright, but Jerry kept his place. He does not pass information done that Russ shares. He also just stops playing and writes lots of notes on his music. Small stuff but it started to get to me.
The other way to order a section is to rotate places. I asked Russ if he could do that. He said he would. He pulled Carl from the back and put him in front of Jerry. Russ never did it on his own. He only would do it when I asked and I never got to be second. I then asked basically if I could sit second but Russ said no. I do not know why. The lack of communication got to me. I do not knwo what to do but I think I will learn viola over the summer and switch. Or I will look for other ways to play my bass.
I also blog for the symphony. I have been struggling with it because no one cares. I have not been posting like I should. They did link the blog from the main site so I really felt like I should post every week. Well yesterday I went to the main site to find out more about the chamber orchestra and when my next concert would be. The link to my blog was gone. I looked all over but they took it done. I do not know if it was on purpose or not. It is very frustrating. I will blog more often for myself. I guess I should find out if it was on purpose or not.
I just do not know if my time with the Chandler Symphony is coming to an end. I have done it for so long that it upsets me to think that.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Babysitting
I am babysitting Brian's and Syd's kids. Kyle is around 4-5 months while Erik is 3 1/2 years old.
Kyle has been sleeping for a few hours. For a moment I envisoned he had stopped breathing and while I thought he was sleeping, he really had died in his sleep. If I had noticed his problem sooner then I could save him. I immediately ran to the living room and checked on him. I stared and saw him sucking lightly on his pacifier. Phew.
I do not know why my brain terrifes me like this but I rather it did not.
We all might go to the library. It depends on when Kyle wakes because I know I am not waking that kid. Erik has been watching TV for hours and I feel we should be doing more. I do not know what. I plan on reading the development book and thinking of ideas. I like to think that it is practice for when/if I have children.
All I know is, I do not know how Brian got stuff done. I know it gets easier as time goes by and it has not been that hard, but it is tiring. I'm glad that Kyle is such a good baby. If there was a screaming baby and a toddle freaking out because he did not want to wash his hands, then I might not be babysitting that long. Instead, they are two cute kids. Erik ate blueberries, blackberries, and an aspargus. He probably needs a nap but it is all good.
Oh right, I read Silverstein poems to Erik. He liked it but it might be too old for him. We almost watched Little Monster then a daydream popped into my head. Erik crying because he is know scared of monsters under the bed. Hmmmm, not a good idea.
Kyle has been sleeping for a few hours. For a moment I envisoned he had stopped breathing and while I thought he was sleeping, he really had died in his sleep. If I had noticed his problem sooner then I could save him. I immediately ran to the living room and checked on him. I stared and saw him sucking lightly on his pacifier. Phew.
I do not know why my brain terrifes me like this but I rather it did not.
We all might go to the library. It depends on when Kyle wakes because I know I am not waking that kid. Erik has been watching TV for hours and I feel we should be doing more. I do not know what. I plan on reading the development book and thinking of ideas. I like to think that it is practice for when/if I have children.
All I know is, I do not know how Brian got stuff done. I know it gets easier as time goes by and it has not been that hard, but it is tiring. I'm glad that Kyle is such a good baby. If there was a screaming baby and a toddle freaking out because he did not want to wash his hands, then I might not be babysitting that long. Instead, they are two cute kids. Erik ate blueberries, blackberries, and an aspargus. He probably needs a nap but it is all good.
Oh right, I read Silverstein poems to Erik. He liked it but it might be too old for him. We almost watched Little Monster then a daydream popped into my head. Erik crying because he is know scared of monsters under the bed. Hmmmm, not a good idea.
Monday, January 24, 2011
I'm back!
It has been two productive months since I last blogged. I chose one word to be my theme last year.
Focus.
I like variety and have a hard time doing only a few tasks. I succeeded last year. My surgery went well. I figured out goals for the coming year.
I played in the Nutcracker again. I played better and the whole caliber of the pit orchestra was higher. We still flubbed up our last performance when the conductor tried to slow done the last act before the intermission. Some people followed. Some did not. We all struggled. We also lost some vital confidence for the rest of the performance.
I quit the Hilton. Once I left, I have been coming to terms that I should have never stayed so long. It was so draining. I never need to prove that I can stay in one job for a long time for my resume. My life does not need that. I will find jobs that like wanderers. Simple as that.
This year needs a word or phrase.
Hmmm... follow through seems lame.
As I stare at my desk, I see the junk on my keyboard and water rings on the top of the desk. Ewww, Got to clean.
Got to focus!
Okay the word is... Building!
I need to build up my self confidence. This is a new thing since usually I am so self assured but not now. I will be who I like and that is that. If people do not like it, I will find new people. I will also confront bothersome problems sooner but with tact.
Build up my health. I had an ultrasound yesterday and I have a fibroid about an inch big. This is 75% smaller than when it caused me all the problems. I believe it is the same fibroid. I plan on going back to acupuncture and playing with my diet. (And yes this upsets me greatly and I'm trying to not let it get to me).
Under the health umbrella is building up my muscles. I want to actually conquer the 100 push ups goal (but really I would be pleased with 50). I am running the Skirt chaser 5k in three weeks though at this moment I can maybe jog a mile.
Build up my funds. I should...wait...I will go out job hunting for a second server job today. I will earn bank during season or the next few months. I am also going to be babysitting on Mondays for Brian and Syd. The money could go to traveling or paying off my medical debt (if I still owe it).
Build up my flirting skills. Seriously, I have a mantra in my head. "Make eye contact. Damn it, no really, make eye contact. Now, smile. No, while making eye contact." This will hopefully lead to dating fun and interesting guys. This is not the biggest priority right now but I am getting a bit lonely.
Build up my skills set. I should be volunteering with the Southwest Center for HIV/AIDS starting in February. I am doing this to see which program I should apply for in the Peace Corps. I really like the idea of the health one. Decreasing infant mortality has been correlated with lots of great things in a society like increase of standard of living and decrease in poverty levels. Also, the health volunteers get to move around more.
Alright, everyone who reads this blog is caught up.
I will most likely be posting on Mondays since I might have free moments on that day.
Focus.
I like variety and have a hard time doing only a few tasks. I succeeded last year. My surgery went well. I figured out goals for the coming year.
I played in the Nutcracker again. I played better and the whole caliber of the pit orchestra was higher. We still flubbed up our last performance when the conductor tried to slow done the last act before the intermission. Some people followed. Some did not. We all struggled. We also lost some vital confidence for the rest of the performance.
I quit the Hilton. Once I left, I have been coming to terms that I should have never stayed so long. It was so draining. I never need to prove that I can stay in one job for a long time for my resume. My life does not need that. I will find jobs that like wanderers. Simple as that.
This year needs a word or phrase.
Hmmm... follow through seems lame.
As I stare at my desk, I see the junk on my keyboard and water rings on the top of the desk. Ewww, Got to clean.
Got to focus!
Okay the word is... Building!
I need to build up my self confidence. This is a new thing since usually I am so self assured but not now. I will be who I like and that is that. If people do not like it, I will find new people. I will also confront bothersome problems sooner but with tact.
Build up my health. I had an ultrasound yesterday and I have a fibroid about an inch big. This is 75% smaller than when it caused me all the problems. I believe it is the same fibroid. I plan on going back to acupuncture and playing with my diet. (And yes this upsets me greatly and I'm trying to not let it get to me).
Under the health umbrella is building up my muscles. I want to actually conquer the 100 push ups goal (but really I would be pleased with 50). I am running the Skirt chaser 5k in three weeks though at this moment I can maybe jog a mile.
Build up my funds. I should...wait...I will go out job hunting for a second server job today. I will earn bank during season or the next few months. I am also going to be babysitting on Mondays for Brian and Syd. The money could go to traveling or paying off my medical debt (if I still owe it).
Build up my flirting skills. Seriously, I have a mantra in my head. "Make eye contact. Damn it, no really, make eye contact. Now, smile. No, while making eye contact." This will hopefully lead to dating fun and interesting guys. This is not the biggest priority right now but I am getting a bit lonely.
Build up my skills set. I should be volunteering with the Southwest Center for HIV/AIDS starting in February. I am doing this to see which program I should apply for in the Peace Corps. I really like the idea of the health one. Decreasing infant mortality has been correlated with lots of great things in a society like increase of standard of living and decrease in poverty levels. Also, the health volunteers get to move around more.
Alright, everyone who reads this blog is caught up.
I will most likely be posting on Mondays since I might have free moments on that day.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Break time
I said I would post everyday to celebrate having posted 100 enteries, but that obviously did not happen. Obviously, I will then do the opposite extreme. I am taking a break! I'm not making self imposed deadlines so screw it. I still plan on posting but no more pressure if I do not.
Also, working two jobs uses up a lot of time. I'm happier though. :)
Also, working two jobs uses up a lot of time. I'm happier though. :)
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Wordpress vs Blogger
I use both Wordpress and Blogger now. I use Blogger.com for my personal blogs and Word press for the Chandler Symphony blog. I feel like I have not played with either as much as I should. Wordpress has impressed me more so far. It seems a bit more user friendly and there is more content for me to learn and play with. I will do that but not this week.
This thought process started for one reason. I said I would blog everyday but forgot till late. I'm tired and wanted a quick subject. I came to blogger trying to convince myself that I could write something quick and not revising it would not be too bad (I know it really is so I will look over the last few blogs because I have been lazy for a bit). I saw the Stat button on blogger so I clicked on it. I do not remember blogger always having that function. I added my own traffic tracker and lost it when I changed my design. Wordpress displays the stats in nifty charts which I like better than blogger's though I am unsure why. I will do more research tomorrow. On the other hand, blogger let me not track my own page views which will significantly decrease traffic.
I have a question about my traffic. Why would someone from the Netherlands be curious about my 100th post or my stupid roommate? A few people from other countries have looked at my blog site. I am guessing a wrong click most of the time. Funny enough, people have looked at my Galapagos post in the past month. This whole stats tab is quite fun. I need to go back and revise older blogs.
This thought process started for one reason. I said I would blog everyday but forgot till late. I'm tired and wanted a quick subject. I came to blogger trying to convince myself that I could write something quick and not revising it would not be too bad (I know it really is so I will look over the last few blogs because I have been lazy for a bit). I saw the Stat button on blogger so I clicked on it. I do not remember blogger always having that function. I added my own traffic tracker and lost it when I changed my design. Wordpress displays the stats in nifty charts which I like better than blogger's though I am unsure why. I will do more research tomorrow. On the other hand, blogger let me not track my own page views which will significantly decrease traffic.
I have a question about my traffic. Why would someone from the Netherlands be curious about my 100th post or my stupid roommate? A few people from other countries have looked at my blog site. I am guessing a wrong click most of the time. Funny enough, people have looked at my Galapagos post in the past month. This whole stats tab is quite fun. I need to go back and revise older blogs.
Monday, November 8, 2010
This is my 100th blog here!
Webcomics always celebrate their hundreds and I feel like I should. I am just unsure how. I will celebrate by blogging once a day for a week. This is also because I so need to catch up on some stories. I thought about writing about my 10 year high school reunion, the election, and Halloween, but I wanted to write about wanting to write. No really, this will be a short blog about a variety of subjects.
I got a new job! I got another food and beverage job. School districts are swamped with subs so I'm postponing going that for two months. The Halloween story will fill in the details for where I got my motivation but it all boils down to the Hilton is a horrible place for me to work for. It is such a toxic place. Anyway, I got a job working at Cafe Forte - a restaurant in Old town Scottsdale.
My brother is moving in December 1st. My roommate is struggling with the fact that I gave her 30 days notice. I told her at first that she probably could stay till December 8th because that was when her apartment became available. Once she got that from me, she stopped talking to me other than polite murmurings. She ignored me and huffed about so I got angry. Also, my bro is excited to move in and have his birthday party here. That date is the 12th of December so 4 days is not enough time. When I told my roommate that she had 30 days, she told me that the earliest she could leave was the 8th. Oh, I do not think so. I told her it was in our sublease agreement that 30 days notice is all that is required. As well, she shot a gun in our house. I love playing that card because she has no argument against it. She tried again to change my mind today. No way, she is out.
Talking of my home, I felt it was too messy. My brother assured me it was not. I picked up a bit and feel better. My room reverted back to its normal mess but I will work on it.
Lastly, my dating break is over. I got tired of meeting guys. Also, life got distracting. I figured out my goals for the next five years and got a second job which seemed to fix most of the issues I was having. At the same time as I got the job, I meet a really nice guy. Who knew that listening to NPR would be a turn on? We are just hanging out so who knows if he is even interested, but he got me thinking of dating again.
Continuing goal - Practice my bass. Not just say it or write it, but actually make some noise.
I got a new job! I got another food and beverage job. School districts are swamped with subs so I'm postponing going that for two months. The Halloween story will fill in the details for where I got my motivation but it all boils down to the Hilton is a horrible place for me to work for. It is such a toxic place. Anyway, I got a job working at Cafe Forte - a restaurant in Old town Scottsdale.
My brother is moving in December 1st. My roommate is struggling with the fact that I gave her 30 days notice. I told her at first that she probably could stay till December 8th because that was when her apartment became available. Once she got that from me, she stopped talking to me other than polite murmurings. She ignored me and huffed about so I got angry. Also, my bro is excited to move in and have his birthday party here. That date is the 12th of December so 4 days is not enough time. When I told my roommate that she had 30 days, she told me that the earliest she could leave was the 8th. Oh, I do not think so. I told her it was in our sublease agreement that 30 days notice is all that is required. As well, she shot a gun in our house. I love playing that card because she has no argument against it. She tried again to change my mind today. No way, she is out.
Talking of my home, I felt it was too messy. My brother assured me it was not. I picked up a bit and feel better. My room reverted back to its normal mess but I will work on it.
Lastly, my dating break is over. I got tired of meeting guys. Also, life got distracting. I figured out my goals for the next five years and got a second job which seemed to fix most of the issues I was having. At the same time as I got the job, I meet a really nice guy. Who knew that listening to NPR would be a turn on? We are just hanging out so who knows if he is even interested, but he got me thinking of dating again.
Continuing goal - Practice my bass. Not just say it or write it, but actually make some noise.
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