Who hates their job already?

Me!

I swear I might not be meant for work. I was disappointed with this job right away but held out hope because it was training. There still exists annoying co-workers and bad management. I have also learned about a question I should ask during the interview. What are the policies for meal breaks and breaks in general?

I worked a 10 hour shift today that started at 5am. I took like 20 minutes in breaks and a co-worker gave me a hard time about it. That is all legal in Arizona. I want to work for a company that respects me. So bad. I do better with food. I have problems because working with people all day drains me and doing routine things drains me. I need variety. If I do not get variety than I need breaks.

So I proclaim:

I am looking for a job that needs a degree and pays at least 30,000. I will work on my resume and cover letters. I will try harder than ever before.

End of proclaim

I want to travel and be away so bad. I will do what I have to do to make that dream come true.

Valetine's update

Today feels like Sunday. I have to work tomorrow at 5:30am so it means I will be going to bed in like 13 minutes. There will not be much to talk about my job because I dislike it. I thought I disliked serving because the management was bad at Old Spaghetti Factory. Apparently I do not like management in restaurants period. I still like serving people but there is more to it than that.

I like serving people. I need to analyze why that it is and put it in my notes for when I'm looking for the career I want. Romantic relationships are like careers. There is not just one out for you but a great one is still not common.

This job also does not pay enough. It pays the same as the jobs I had in the past, but I have changed. I have dreams with deadlines. I wanted to own a condo and be traveling by May 2010. That is unreasonable. The current goal is still to own a condo in about a year or so. It will take some time to get renters and it all set up. During this time, I will also look for programs where I can teach English in other countries so I can live some where and earn money to travel more. I will also look for a job that pays better around 30,000 because that is the money I need to be making to achieve the dream.

I play tons of facebook games. I practice my bass but not enough. I do not clean my room. I do take LuDog to the dog park.

I love writing. I'm struggling with the latest poem. It has to be titled, "New Strain of Intelligent Acne discovered." I'm struggling because I'm not writing it. My last poem I wrote a bit and I was thinking about it constantly. This one not so much. I believe I'm overthinking it. The one after that is to start the poem with a fact and go. I'm excited for that one. I will be posting "The Park" soon. It has taught me to be more confident in my writing. I do not write "I believe" and "I think" as much. I also assume that things flow because I wrote them.

I enjoy Valetine's Day. I'm a bit bummed that I did not get anyone any Valetine's cards. Cheesy ones with dogs and princess stating that we are best friends. I have no problem with being single. I enjoy it so, but I'm slightly looking. I just have to detach dating with long term relationship. I so do not want the last one that at times I cannot even think of dating.

Off to iron.

Wrap up of the year of the Earth Rat

I have been checking the internet a lot about chinese astrology. There is a part of me that just likes astrology and really really wants it to be true. The rest and biggest part of me knows that there is nothing substantial there. Just so everyone knows, the year of the Earth Ox will be starting January 26th. I seem to remember that the recommended course is to be patient and steady like an Ox!

I got to say that the year of the Earth Rat was very interesting. I'm especially liking the end of it. I'm getting comfortable at home. Unpacking a lot of my stuff except for the kitchen gear. I have lots of time to unpack and practice my bass for the next week and a bit. I got a job! I have decided to stick with it for a while so I'm not worrying about getting a second job. What is it?

The Hilton is opening a new hotel at teh 101 and 202. I went to the job fair where I waited two hours to get interviewed. It turned out to be worth it because I got the job. I am a server/hostess/banquet server. It is in the AM so I have to be at work by 6am or 6:30am. Not looking forward to that but I will be done with my day by noon.

This will give me plenty of time to do other things. I have decided that most of those things will be creative ventures. I have been practicing my bass daily Cough for two days, but hope that to continue. I wrote half of a short story while waiting in a public health clinic. I'm actually achieving my dream of writing. I never considered it a dream but it has been floating around in the back of my head for a long time. I always thought I was never good enough and I knew I could not take criticism well. I then realized "Fuck it". I will write these stories for myself and I have toughened up. (I hope) So... I'm trying to sign up for a Creative Writing course. The problem being that my Eng 105 ( a honor course at ASU) which counted for Eng 101/102 at ASU only counts at Eng 101 at MCC. I would have to take Eng 102 if the teacher does not approve. I believe I have enough writing experience from my whole five years to count. I really hope so because I do not know if I would take Eng 102 again.

It is unbelievable that I have been back a month. I'm adjusting back. I have not seen some of you which is sad. I hope that is corrected in the future. I plan on sharing the stories that I did not have time to write while traveling, later, here in this blog. I will also be posting my stories so look forward to that. This year will be a re-grouping year. Last year was a healing OMG this will never end - transformation year. This year I want to clean some stuff out - literally and figuratively. I practice my bass and wash the dishes everyday. I'm starting to work out regularly. I need to go through my email accounts and delete like mad. I have unpacked most of my boxes so I'm starting to feel more settled. I want to live elsewhere. I enjoy living with my parents but Chandler is just a bit out of the loop. I'm looking forward to new skills: the writing, cooking (I have mostly gone vegetarian), and becoming a GM. I also desire to write here much more.

Final thought
I'm addicted to Facebook games at this time.

Sick and Resume time

I have been sick this whole weekend and decided I would share it with the world. I started to feel a tickle in my thoart when playing games with Grumpator and Chris, but did not worry about it. Every morning I have been waking up to snort green mucus out of my nose. I know, what a pleasant image.

I did eat soup and rest some what but not really. I did a small workout that was mostly setting up machines. The next day, I watched the Cardinals game at Christian's house with Mike and Christian. Christian was really sweet and made me soup with some garlic bread. I then went to two different parties. One was in Apache Junction where I learned that the world is small. I ran into this guy I had meet through my ex who knew his ex back in the day when we were all not ex's. His roommate worked with this 21 year old who was having the birthday party. And the birthday boy's father lived next door to LuAnne and Christian.

I then went to Giorgos's party where I had a blast. I was not expecting to have a blast but it was fun. I got a chance to play Rayman's Raving Rabbids:TV Party which I love. It is where I fell in love with this song called "Acceptable in the 80's". I also talked to a guy who had recently got out of a bad relationship. He was so different. He was more talkative, confident, and all around fun. I have know this guy for years and it showed me the power that bad relationships have on a person. This got me looking at my own bad relationship and see just how much I struggled to stay positive which I could not do. Will try to be aware of how my future relationships affect me without being paranoid.

Yesterday I got my hair trimmed (it is hard to notice a difference) because I have decided to stick with longer hair for a while. Then I went to a different gathering that was cozy but not amazing fun. That is fine because it was nice to just chill on the couch with some friends.

The problem is that my sleep schedule is getting more and more off. I feel good at night so play video games or read later and later. I started at midnight, then one, then two, and lastly four in the morning. This equeals me getting up later and later. This has probably not helped me getting better. Today I will work on the resume and not push myself. This is a good time because I found some job openings that need a resume. Apparently CPA's still help so I will go back to my clerical roots.

Oh, I also had an interview with a Pizza joint called Spinato. It was actually the company that I had the best vibe for a place where I would want to work. The prices looked reasonable and the food descriptions looked good. But seriously that is a job of a menu so I would like to try the food even if I do not get the job. I think I interviewed alright. I got a good vibe afterwards but sometimes that is wrong, and the competition is fierce these days. The address is Spinato's Pizza - North Tempe
277 South Smith Road Tempe, AZ 85281. They had some good vegetarian options as well. The pay is onlu 7.25 plus tips at first but there is potential to work up to a server. I really want a job because I have this credit card debit that is making me itching.

Anyway, I'm going to go eat some soup and play video games. Once I get a job, look forward to hearing me blog about finding a place and a roommate. After that is all settle, then I will probably write about wanting to find a nice man and doing research on trips. And I'm sure I will write about looking for a better job. A short summary of my next year.
Ciao!

Changes in Career Test?

I'm taking the Princeton Review test again. I forgot how I did all this career stuff before. (Look there is the mighty word again ... Stuff)

Anyway back in the day aka I do not remeber I got these results. If this bores you, do not read it. This just seemed like a good place to store stuff.
Interest Color - Green
People with green Interests like job responsibilities and occupations that involve persuasion, sales, promotions, and group or personal contact. People with green Interests enjoy activities that include: motivating, mediating, selling, influencing, consensus building, persuading, delegating authority, entertaining, and lobbying. These Interests often lead to work in marketing, advertising, training, therapy, consulting, teaching, law, and public relations.

Usual style - Blue
People with blue styles prefer to perform their job responsibilities in a manner that is supportive and helpful to others with a minimum of confrontation. They prefer to work where they have time to think things through before acting. People with blue style tend to be insightful, reflective, selectively sociable, creative, thoughtful, emotional, imaginative, and sensitive. Usually they thrive in a cutting edge, informally paced, future-oriented environment. You will want to choose a work environment or career path in which your style is welcomed and produces results.



The NOW!
Interest Color - Blue
People with blue Interests like job responsibilities and occupations that involve creative, humanistic, thoughtful, and quiet types of activities. Blue Interests include abstracting, theorizing, designing, writing, reflecting, and originating, which often lead to work in editing, teaching, composing, inventing, mediating, clergy, and writing.

Usual Style - Yellow
People with yellow styles perform their job responsibilities in a manner that is orderly and planned to meet a known schedule. They prefer to work where things get done with a minimum of interpretation and unexpected change. People with a yellow style tend to be orderly, cautious, structured, loyal, systematic, solitary, methodical, and organized, and usually thrive in a research-oriented, predictable, established, controlled, measurable, orderly environment. You will want to choose a work environment or career path in which your style is welcomed and produces results.

Yellow is not ME! This is probably why I got the idea of being a research scientist.

Personality Test Results

Myers Briggs = ENFP
This translates to Champion in Kersey system
Enneagram Types - The Enthusiast.

Funny enough the description is very similiar to the color quiz results.
a link to #7 The enthusiast

The color quiz said this about me.

Existing situation
Seeks to share a bond of understanding intimacy in an esthetic atmosphere of peace and tenderness.

My stress sources
Feels that life has far more to offer and that there are still important things to be achieved--that life must be experienced to the fullest. As a result, she pursues her objectives with a fierce intensity that will not let go of things. Becomes deeply involved and runs the risk of being unable to view things with sufficient objectivity, or calmly enough; is therefore in danger of becoming agitated and of exhausting her nervous energy. Cannot leave things alone and feels she can only be at peace when she has finally reached her goal.

My restrained Characteristics
Unhappy at the resistance she feels whenever she tries to assert herself. However, she believes that there is little she can do and that she must make the best of the situation.
Feels that things stand in her way, that circumstances are forcing her to compromise and forgo some pleasures for the time being.

My desired objective
In despair and needs relief of some sort. Wants physical ease, a problem free security, and the chance to recover

My actual problem
The fear that she may be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her into a relentless search for satisfaction in the pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities


I will admit last year that I wanted a problem free security and a chance to recover but this year is different. I also do not think that I'm in pursuit of illusory or meaningless activities.

Always looking for a job

I know that this not true but I feel like it is. I feel like I have been looking for a job for the past three years even when I had one. Looking for the one that would make me more happy than not. At this point, I'm looking for a job that will pay me with money. I'm still not quite to the level of fast food or call service but I am looking at administrative positions which I just have no enthusiasm for. I'm going to call to get the subsitute forms sent to my house because I think that job would be good for me.

I do have days where I get down about the whole career search but I still have hope. I was never worried about my job hopping but now it seems to be not just a year trend. Scratch that. I had one job that I kept the whole year. I just happen to travel for a fourth of the year. I will not get too worried but I just want money.

Anyway, the new year is coming very soon. I have some goals for this new year. I want to get a job and make money. I will then save most of this money to own my own apartment/condo and for my next big trip. Remember I plan on visiting South America by way of Mexico and Central America. I would like to meet new people who like to play the games I enjoy. I hope this greatly or otherwise I might go back to TGS and I believe that would be bad. I just love board and card games, and the people who enjoy playing those games with me, do not have time.

I guess I need to get my own place to live. I so focus on the job part that I'm not looking to far ahead. Except I'm thinking two years in the future. I guess it is the in between that is so grey for me. Hehehe. It is like Warcraft (not World of) where you can see where you are at and your long term goal but the rest is all black with the fog of war.

I think about men but I have no resolutions or goals for them. I would like to date but it does not seem to important. I do NOT want a relationship. Blah, get shivers when I think about it, but I do not want to sleep with random men. I want a nice in between where we have fun but do not get too serious, and then we move on to new people. I guess that does sound like sleeping with random men but anyway, I'm vague about the future when it comes to this aspect.

I need to practice my bass more. That is always but I almost believe it might happen this year. I would like to take courses in stuff. That's right, the mighty word, Stuff. For example I would enjoy ceramics, politics, and Spanish. This is one of my biggest goals. Do not lose too much Spanish. The only TV I watch is channel 33 or the spanish channel. I also read Tres desos hoy. One cool thing is when I start thinking in Spanish, more spanish comes out. I plan on writing in my journal in espanol but it is so hard. Just reading my "it is for 8 year olds or younger" book today, tired my brain out.

There it is. I want a job, a place to live, and some new friends. And practice my bass. Sounds a whole like last year but I'm so very different than I was last year.