I am babysitting Brian's and Syd's kids. Kyle is around 4-5 months while Erik is 3 1/2 years old.
Kyle has been sleeping for a few hours. For a moment I envisoned he had stopped breathing and while I thought he was sleeping, he really had died in his sleep. If I had noticed his problem sooner then I could save him. I immediately ran to the living room and checked on him. I stared and saw him sucking lightly on his pacifier. Phew.
I do not know why my brain terrifes me like this but I rather it did not.
We all might go to the library. It depends on when Kyle wakes because I know I am not waking that kid. Erik has been watching TV for hours and I feel we should be doing more. I do not know what. I plan on reading the development book and thinking of ideas. I like to think that it is practice for when/if I have children.
All I know is, I do not know how Brian got stuff done. I know it gets easier as time goes by and it has not been that hard, but it is tiring. I'm glad that Kyle is such a good baby. If there was a screaming baby and a toddle freaking out because he did not want to wash his hands, then I might not be babysitting that long. Instead, they are two cute kids. Erik ate blueberries, blackberries, and an aspargus. He probably needs a nap but it is all good.
Oh right, I read Silverstein poems to Erik. He liked it but it might be too old for him. We almost watched Little Monster then a daydream popped into my head. Erik crying because he is know scared of monsters under the bed. Hmmmm, not a good idea.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
I'm back!
It has been two productive months since I last blogged. I chose one word to be my theme last year.
Focus.
I like variety and have a hard time doing only a few tasks. I succeeded last year. My surgery went well. I figured out goals for the coming year.
I played in the Nutcracker again. I played better and the whole caliber of the pit orchestra was higher. We still flubbed up our last performance when the conductor tried to slow done the last act before the intermission. Some people followed. Some did not. We all struggled. We also lost some vital confidence for the rest of the performance.
I quit the Hilton. Once I left, I have been coming to terms that I should have never stayed so long. It was so draining. I never need to prove that I can stay in one job for a long time for my resume. My life does not need that. I will find jobs that like wanderers. Simple as that.
This year needs a word or phrase.
Hmmm... follow through seems lame.
As I stare at my desk, I see the junk on my keyboard and water rings on the top of the desk. Ewww, Got to clean.
Got to focus!
Okay the word is... Building!
I need to build up my self confidence. This is a new thing since usually I am so self assured but not now. I will be who I like and that is that. If people do not like it, I will find new people. I will also confront bothersome problems sooner but with tact.
Build up my health. I had an ultrasound yesterday and I have a fibroid about an inch big. This is 75% smaller than when it caused me all the problems. I believe it is the same fibroid. I plan on going back to acupuncture and playing with my diet. (And yes this upsets me greatly and I'm trying to not let it get to me).
Under the health umbrella is building up my muscles. I want to actually conquer the 100 push ups goal (but really I would be pleased with 50). I am running the Skirt chaser 5k in three weeks though at this moment I can maybe jog a mile.
Build up my funds. I should...wait...I will go out job hunting for a second server job today. I will earn bank during season or the next few months. I am also going to be babysitting on Mondays for Brian and Syd. The money could go to traveling or paying off my medical debt (if I still owe it).
Build up my flirting skills. Seriously, I have a mantra in my head. "Make eye contact. Damn it, no really, make eye contact. Now, smile. No, while making eye contact." This will hopefully lead to dating fun and interesting guys. This is not the biggest priority right now but I am getting a bit lonely.
Build up my skills set. I should be volunteering with the Southwest Center for HIV/AIDS starting in February. I am doing this to see which program I should apply for in the Peace Corps. I really like the idea of the health one. Decreasing infant mortality has been correlated with lots of great things in a society like increase of standard of living and decrease in poverty levels. Also, the health volunteers get to move around more.
Alright, everyone who reads this blog is caught up.
I will most likely be posting on Mondays since I might have free moments on that day.
Focus.
I like variety and have a hard time doing only a few tasks. I succeeded last year. My surgery went well. I figured out goals for the coming year.
I played in the Nutcracker again. I played better and the whole caliber of the pit orchestra was higher. We still flubbed up our last performance when the conductor tried to slow done the last act before the intermission. Some people followed. Some did not. We all struggled. We also lost some vital confidence for the rest of the performance.
I quit the Hilton. Once I left, I have been coming to terms that I should have never stayed so long. It was so draining. I never need to prove that I can stay in one job for a long time for my resume. My life does not need that. I will find jobs that like wanderers. Simple as that.
This year needs a word or phrase.
Hmmm... follow through seems lame.
As I stare at my desk, I see the junk on my keyboard and water rings on the top of the desk. Ewww, Got to clean.
Got to focus!
Okay the word is... Building!
I need to build up my self confidence. This is a new thing since usually I am so self assured but not now. I will be who I like and that is that. If people do not like it, I will find new people. I will also confront bothersome problems sooner but with tact.
Build up my health. I had an ultrasound yesterday and I have a fibroid about an inch big. This is 75% smaller than when it caused me all the problems. I believe it is the same fibroid. I plan on going back to acupuncture and playing with my diet. (And yes this upsets me greatly and I'm trying to not let it get to me).
Under the health umbrella is building up my muscles. I want to actually conquer the 100 push ups goal (but really I would be pleased with 50). I am running the Skirt chaser 5k in three weeks though at this moment I can maybe jog a mile.
Build up my funds. I should...wait...I will go out job hunting for a second server job today. I will earn bank during season or the next few months. I am also going to be babysitting on Mondays for Brian and Syd. The money could go to traveling or paying off my medical debt (if I still owe it).
Build up my flirting skills. Seriously, I have a mantra in my head. "Make eye contact. Damn it, no really, make eye contact. Now, smile. No, while making eye contact." This will hopefully lead to dating fun and interesting guys. This is not the biggest priority right now but I am getting a bit lonely.
Build up my skills set. I should be volunteering with the Southwest Center for HIV/AIDS starting in February. I am doing this to see which program I should apply for in the Peace Corps. I really like the idea of the health one. Decreasing infant mortality has been correlated with lots of great things in a society like increase of standard of living and decrease in poverty levels. Also, the health volunteers get to move around more.
Alright, everyone who reads this blog is caught up.
I will most likely be posting on Mondays since I might have free moments on that day.
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