New Year

2008 is starting very different than 2007.

In 2007, I was living comfortable with my best friend and had no real plans to move. I had a job I was going to start later in January but I had not expectations for it being good for anything except to pay the bills. I liked my friends and had not made any new ones in a bit. Lastly, I was on a emotional high of getting engaged and a joint account. I was very happpy with my life and the direction I saw it taking.

2008 has started out great but boy am I starting over. I'm living with my mother and just recently found a place to live with my new roommate. I did not have that at New Year's Eve though but I was excited that I found a roommate. We will be living in Central Phoenix near Encanto Park at 20th Ave and Thomas starting Febuary. I have no clue about the job situation, but oddly I'm more excited about the search than I have been in a while. I think I needed a year of really crappy jobs to give me focus. Even if the next job sucks ass, I will not get personally invested and I will suck it for every contact and learning experience I can get. I still really like my friends, but I'm branching out and recontacting. I feel closer to Grumpator because of role playing and through that experience have met a group of really cool people who I hope to hang out with more. I knew a group of friends through the best friend I used to live with, but I had never really contected with them until now. I have a really good feeling about them aka the Posse for future blogs. I have started to garner an IM circle of friends. All of those things have made me very happy.

There is one area of my life that I thought would be even better after the New Year. I believed that I would be even more over the heartbreak that occured in November. I am finding that is not true. In this past week, I have cried more than I thought I would. I do not know if it is because everyone looks back at the old year or if the holidays kept me so busy that I got to push my feelings away. I have hope for the future in this area, but right now, it stills hurts. I have decided to not date anyone seriously until after April 11th. Maybe it is silly to chose a date, but I like to give myself goals where I can let myself think about things. I very doubt I will rush into my next big relationship but this way I can just be like "Nope, the time is not right"

I started to blog here because I'm hoping only a few people will read this and they will not be people I date. That way I can write about how my dating adventures are going and they will not know nor their friends that maybe my friends. I was dating a guy recently but wanted to blog about it but could not because he was a myspace friend and he had some of the same friends. Also, this one can be the more personal one and only people who really like me will think to go here in the future.